• What colour is autumn?

    What colour is autumn? Is it yellow as shining cold, rich and generous? Is it bright red as the lips of a gorgeous elegant woman, sending you a hidden smile? Or perhaps it is orange like a beautiful fruit – fresh and juicy, ready to be enjoyed.

    There is another colour that reminds me of autumn: terracotta. That red-brown-orange melange of colours is extremely warm and friendly. It is like an open fireplace inviting you to have an intimate quiet moment in a cosy warm corner. Or like endless rows of ceramic pots on the shelves in the market. It is a colour of shoes and sweet warm sweaters that I like to take out of the closet after a warm summer season.

    Autumn gold. Photo taken by Kai Tomasberg

    Brown is an autumn colour. It contains yellow and red, and black. Brown is earth, brown are mushrooms in the forest, and brown are the leaves under my shoes on the wet streets after rain. Brown is the nature when the colour parade is over. I think brown even has a smell that comes with the end of autumn. It is a smell of earth – calm and reassuring that everything is going to be just fine.

    Mushrooms in the forest. Photo taken by Kai Tomasberg

    Is blue also an autumn colour? Blue is the colour of timeless hopes and freedom to dream. The blue sky is like an open door to the future where everything is possible. It is a colour of our thoughts and clear mind but also of our pure soul and peaceful innocence. For me blue represents spring, a season of new life.

    Autumn clouds. Photo taken by Kai Tomasberg

    Autumn is a closure. Although a season of rich colours, it is a bit of a charade. It seems as if autumn is partying with us, but in reality it is in a hurry to clean up for a long quiet rest afterwards.
    Autumn is like an old woman decorating herself with bright colours, whishing to be still young. It is too hard to admit the passing time and accept the present.

    Noticing the end of the warm season makes us sad. Sadness looks grey. Rain is grey, and so are the raindrops on the window and tears in our eyes. Grey is an autumn colour, desperate and low in energy. There is no power in this colour, any other colour can shine on it. Grey is a quiet moment.

    Misty autumn morning. Photo taken by Kai Tomasberg

    Winter comes and turns sad grey raindrops into beautiful white snowflakes. It brings light and cool colours that brighten the sky. Look at the sunrise and sunset in winter, deep purple and clear pink together with thin, almost transparent blue! Magnificent!

    But what about green? Is green an autumn colour? I like to think that yes, although new fresh green appears only in spring, with the warm sun and first rain. That frivolous green is different from mature, deep and calm green in autumn. Conifers remain green, despite the cold and dark season. Green are the plants we keep on our window sills. Green is a colour of balance and universal peace. Green is life. It is always present in the nature.

    Mountain ash. Photo taken by Kai Tomasberg
  • Falling in love with silence

    I am tired of noise. Everywhere I go there is noise. Even while relaxing in my garden, I hear a constant noise of traffic and planes passing over my head. The noise is not always very loud but loud enough to be noticed. Some people say that they are fine living in the city and that they are so used to noise that it doesn’t disturb them anymore. That unfortunately doesn’t mean that noise has no effect on our health.

    Background noise has spread to every sphere of our lives and become so dominant almost everywhere that we have started to take it as the norm: as something natural, a normal part of our daily lives. We even add more noise by constantly listening to radio, music, TV. As we allow noise to enter our head and brains through earphones so many hours each day, the question arises whether we can even tolerate real silence. Do we even know how it sounds?

    I have looked for silence for many years and feel comfortable and completely relaxed only when there is no disturbing sounds around me. Also no TV, no radio, no music. Yes, even no music. I voluntarily choose not to listen to anything in my phone. There is no music in my car when I am driving, no constant TV sound running in my home. I also do not need to talk much. There is so much beauty and relaxing freedom in being silent. I feel my senses resting.

    I have asked people what is the first thing they do when they wake up in the morning and get out of bed. Many of them answered that they usually go the kitchen, switch on the radio (or TV) and make coffee.

    I skip the first part and usually open the front door instead. I step out, take some deep breaths and then go the kitchen and make coffee. It is such a wonderful feeling to step outside and take a deep breath; to feel the cold or warmth, the wind or rain; to greet the sun. I notice the birds singing, smell fresh soil, grass and flowers, I hear the wind. These are the sounds of nature. They are not tiring, they do not upset, they make me happy.

    Riisa bog, Soomaa Natural Park, Estonia. Photo by Kai Tomasberg

    I have found my sacred place where I can relax, reload my batteries and find my balance back. It is called nature. It can be a forest, a coast, a nature area away from towns, factories, supermarkets, beaches, hotels and people. A place where I can be quiet and hear the silence. The silence I have fallen in love with.

    Riisa bog, Soomaa National Park, Estonia. Photo by Kai Tomasberg

    So next time you go walking in the nature, take your earphones off. Slow down and walk in silence. Discover that magical, completely relaxing feeling of being silent in the silent environment. Let the sounds of nature become dominant: listen to the wind in the trees, to the rain in the leaves, to the waves at the coast… Become aware of the beautiful life around you. It is still there. Even now. You have to make the first move to reach it.

  • Loving forest

    Oh how much I like the sunny forest full with a sweet blueberry smell full of light! How very appealing it is to follow its invitation and step into this magnificent temple, every time different, surprising, unique setting.

    Cool and fresh in the morning, warm and welcoming during the day, mysterious and dark at night. Forest gives us such a positive feeling every time, even a short walk in a shady greenery changes our mood, makes us feel happy and grateful.

    Forest in Paikuse, Estonia.
    Photo by Kai Tomasberg

    Come, don’t be afraid. Step inside and be still. Take time to observe the life around you. Forest lives and breathes! It has its own colours, smells and sounds. The wind sings its songs and the mossy soil smells different in a warm sunny day than after a rain. Every moment is different. Everything is in movement.

    Forest is a place to be. Just you and nobody else. Alone with yourself. However, remember that you are there one of the characters in the woods together with so many other living souls! Be polite, be humble. Don’t disturb anybody with your presence. There is enough space for everybody.

    Admire the beauty of the nature. Observe, listen, touch. Trees are there like silent giant friends surrounding you, guiding you towards the light, towards the inner harmony. They hold you gently and swing your senses until you find back your balance.
    Stay silent and wait until a deep calmness enters your body, takes away the sorrow and heals you.

    Breathe. Breathe deeply and open up to accept this beautiful gift that the forest offers you. This gift is priceless. You only need to learn the language of the forest to understand the wind and the trees.

    Forest in Paikuse, Estonia.
    Photo by Kai Tomasberg

    Whisper together with the trees, sing with them. Open your soul and let this rhythm and melody enter you. Take the song with you when you leave the forest. It is pure love that you receive when you entered the forest with the open heart.